To, You.

I love the security I feel the instant I shout Your name in my head.You've never ever failed to make me feel secure again, and You'd always make me feel a little much more better in bad times. You never leave me and I know You're with me 24/7, in these 14 years, every moment of my life, You were with me. You've known me before I was borned, and You had a plan, a great plan for me. I love You, for creating me, and for loving me, and for holding me tightly.

I love you in your most exhausting state, still get water for me and her when we're in our beds. You would bring us food, when we're hungry and you'd always protect us. You do the best you can in taking care of me. You're different from a lot of other mothers, you're one of a kind. And I don't think I can find anyone on earth, like you. You're mad, but I know you're just worried about us. You loved all of us equally, I know. And I pray that, as you get older, you'll be more and more beautiful.

I love the small little secretive smile you smile when you see something you feel thankful for. No one really notices it, but I do. I love you, and it's nature that I've always wanted to please you. You make a great person, and you play a very important role in my life. You don't hold me like you used to, but I know you love me, just like before. You stand up for me always, and though it fails sometimes, I love you, more than ever.

I love the way you rant about how much you want to buy that pair of football shoes. your consistent persistency to 'sponsor' you, and how you said how cheap and good they're even when they cost a great fortune. you can be so naughty that I'd dig a deep hole and squeeze you inside and then bury you, but you can be the most helpful person, and you can be so mature at your age, you're indirectly caring, and though so many people may take you as childish, I know you are amazing in your very own way. I notice you, and I love you.

I love how I gives in to your cute little plea, your somewhat funny and chubby face makes me thank God more for you everytime I sees it. You can be nice and you can b mean, but I know you, and I know deep inside you, you're soft, and you're amazing. You whine and cry always about how unfair things are, but you never realised that you're one of the luckiest girl on the surface of the earth, and I love you so much.

I love your text messages. Actually, I don't. I love your consistency of sending me the texts. As a cell group leader, you've done more than your best. I really hope you can see this. and as busy as you are, you still find time to listen to my boring and same problems. I know it's frustrating sometimes, but you are just, an amazing person. I love you, for being there for me when I needed you most. You play an important role in my life, and I'd always remember you.

I love how happy I get when I see you running up to me, and giving me your personal hug, something that no one else can give. Your hugs are amazing, and you yourself is an amazing person. I love the way you come back for me, and I wouldn't couldn't ask for a better person than you. You make me mad and when I'm mad at you I would like to punch you really badly in your face, but then you make me really happy at my saddest moments. I would always remember your ever funny face, your funny actions, and your funny words. You're great.

GREAT is the word.

I love how easy going you can be. I just have to pull you and you'd follow, you're not the best person I could go to to tell my problems but you're one great friend. You can be mean at times, but I know you're good inside. You're very easy to pull, all I can say, very fun to be with too. nd I love you the way you are.

I love your cheerful hi's and the warm hugs you sometimes give me. The way you open your eyes wide when there's something fun going on, like a malaysian sale. *hint* you never fail to make me laugh with your silliest jokes, and I believe I do too. Although mine are not as weird and silly as yours. We had been through a lot, and I still love hanging around with you and sometimes asking you for advice.

I love the fact that you can make me sad or happy whenever you want. Well, not always but still. You get mad at me, and after awhile, you would laugh, and befriend me. The way you do things is a little crazy sometimes, but without you, I wouldn't be where I am today, and I love you for standing up for me.

I want to write more, but I should force myself to stop, before I get dizzy and more neckache. till here love. :)

my 200th, :)

Have been contemplating on whether to write here or wordpress, but then I just realised, that if I wrote here, this would be my 200th post. coooliooooo. I know I dont blog much, 'cause I don't see the point sometimes, but maybe, I just want to record down some of the moments in my life, and when I come back here in ten years time, I would smile, and learn from my mistakes, and regain my joy. :)

Guitar class with Wei Xiong would never be boring, he teaches us old stuff, but still. :) he taught me some inversion thing today, and it's really awesome. eeeeh, i have an awesome guitar teacher. :D

Im going on a four-days trip to somewhere*- would buy everyone a souveneir, I'll try my best. :) Im going to miss school, surprisingly, and all the monthly test. somehow I wish I could not go and do my monthly tests but it is confirmed and cannot be changed, so I shall just stick to it :) I wish I could make it up to you, but I don't know how. *twist lips*

AND,

my mummy's friend owe this website, the clothes there are terrific, :) go take a quick peek at :-

yiyibusherachel.blogspot.com

Please, contact me if you want to purchase anything from there. :D

Okay, that's about it. ;) and dont cha love this picture?

hehhh, when I grow up,


:D

I missed,

the way I held my daddy's hand while sleeping when I was younger,
the way I hugged my mummy,
the way I asked my uncles questions about History,
the way I peek into the kitchen to look at my auntie cooking,
the way I play masak-masak with my sister,
the way I carried my brother around on my shoulders,
the way I asked my kakak to make me french toast,
the way I knock at my parents' bedroom door at midnight- thinking there would be ghosts,
the way I played and talked to my cousins,
the way I tell my friends my secrets without a slight bit of suspect,
the way I wear hello kitty around without feeling ashamed,
the way I watch winx club and totally spies with my sister- eyes glued on the tv screen,
and,
the way I didn't really have to care much about the world.

:'(

'cause Im gonna need, somebody to lean on.

HELLO!

pictures SHOUTS a thousand words so I shall not blab too much. :)

Esther Tan.
the all-time fun wheeeewahhhh one, and I love this picture. so, ehhhh NICE. :)

Before performing, in the dressing room. I love this picture, :) very much.

Dominic looks taller, suddenly. :)

IDK why I was looking down. Hmm.

OKAY, rest 'of the pictures are with facebook. :)

I really want to quickly upload them now.

OVERALL, Retro was marvellous. Im so proud of my school for having this amazing concert, something I would always remember, and I look forward to the next one. :) and did I mention, the hairbands are GORGEOUS. :)

LOVE, RETHROEN. :)

I had quite a tiring but awesome day, what about you? :D

I was contemplating on whether to blog here or my other, blog- www.fragileyetstrong.wordpress.com
and I choose to blog here, for now. :)

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Yesterday, mummy came home with a pair of Levi's, and I was so shocked at the sight of it, it was gorgeous, I thanked her, tried it on, fits me perfectly (: just that it's a little too long underneath, but it's alright! (: haven't bought jeans since IDK when.

Then today, I went to Sunway after school, and I bought three cardigans! *smilesreallywidely*
actually, two, because the other one is my mummy's and she said I can wear it whenever I want, so yes, THREE. Got them from Cotton On! *smileswidelyagain* Phewww, they finally open in Sunway. (: And then I saw a new line of high-waist skirts, I was like :O, but then we had to go home so I didn't manage to try any of them on. They were so very beautiful. and they're affordable and cheap! (: totally worthed.
BUTTTT, I think I shall control a little, and maybe but those skirts next month. (:

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yes, that's my story for today. and I'm glad that I manage to get 3rd. (: ahhhh, actually, 4th, technically. yeah, whatevers, (:

duhdumdumdumdumdumduhdum. whoaaaah.

Heyloo.

Did you notice something today?

Okay, I will tell you.

Today is the 1st of July. I know it seems weird but I've just realised another thing, that it, half of a year has just passed and today is the start of the second half. It's like a new start? cool, no? :D I think it is really coool, to have a good start for the rest of the year today.

Well, prcatices was as usual, tiring. But it was kindah productive, not very much though, :/

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So they were giving out Retro tickets to us, to be sold out. Mummy said she would buy 3 tickets, for dad, her and berlinda to see us. Awesome. :)

yes, 17th of July is Retro, please come if you do read my blog.

Rm 1000

Rm 500

Rm 200

Rm 100

Rm 50

tickets,

waiting to be bought by you. :)

Please do come join us, the money goes to charity.

1) For building a multi sensory room for special children.

2) For kids who can't afford medication fees in Universiti Hospital.

Please contact Sekolah Sri Nobel, if you are interested. I would post the telephone number the next time I blog. :) but do, visit our website. :)

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Okay, I shall go off now. I'm very tired. :P

XxO.