the 364th of the 2012th year.

the things i did todayy-

1. ate at this old slightly run down chinese restaurant which sells potato made mee. & it tastes so good.

2. dyed my hair back to my natural hair color today, because school is in 3 days? (should i be excited? actually, i am)

3. satisfied my ice-cream craving with the haagen dazs small-sized strawberry meringue.

4. and now heading for genting for a leaders' retreat. getting dizzy.

till the next update! :*

One reminder,

To whoever who reads my blog,

You've got to get used to failures, disappointments. You need to learn from your mistakes, and try your best not to repeat them, even if it hurts, to be right, even if it's scary, to be right, even if it makes you uncertain, to be right. You've gotta pick yourself up somehow, and you've gotta learn to take your situation in, live with it, and make it better.

You will make it. You can make it. Don't forget that God will get you through it. There are no failures or disappointments that are too much to bear in Jesus Christ. Hold on to your only hope. Hold on, and start moving.

word.

Read.

Brothers and sisters, if someone is caught in a sin, you who live by the Spirit should restore that person gently. But watch yourselves, or you also may be tempted. Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks they are something when they are not, they deceive themselves. Each one should test their own actions. Then they can take pride in themselves alone, without comparing themselves to someone else, for each one should carry their own load. Nevertheless, the one who receives instruction in the word should share all good things with their instructor. Do not be deceived: God cannot be mocked. A man reaps what he sows. Whoever sows to please their flesh, from the flesh will reap destruction; whoever sows to please the Spirit, from the Spirit will reap eternal life. Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up. Therefore, as we have opportunity, let us do good to all people, especially to those who belong to the family of believers. See what large letters I use as I write to you with my own hand! Those who want to impress people by means of the flesh are trying to compel you to be circumcised. The only reason they do this is to avoid being persecuted for the cross of Christ. Not even those who are circumcised keep the law, yet they want you to be circumcised that they may boast about your circumcision in the flesh. May I never boast except in the cross of our Lord Jesus Christ, through which the world has been crucified to me, and I to the world. Neither circumcision nor uncircumcision means anything; what counts is the new creation. Peace and mercy to all who follow this rule—to the Israel of God. From now on, let no one cause me trouble, for I bear on my body the marks of Jesus. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with your spirit, brothers and sisters. Amen.

Galatians 6:1-18

immerse into slumber,-

I'm happy today.

Sometimes in life, you just have to pick yourself up, think positively and just, live.
Dwelling in despair won't get you anywhere, something that I took, way to long to learn & to understand.

So, live.

Live for God, live for yourself. Live.

Goodnight, world. Say a little prayer of gratitude before you immerse into slumber.

Vayy-cayyyy.

My vacayyyy!


Sometimes, you need to take some time off, go somewhere different with different people, just to enjoy life. Yay yay! 😘

Oh have I mentioned I absolutely adore LOOKBOOK fashion. ❤

f(ul)(oo)l.

empty plate, empty mug, empty heart.

My 14th of Dec, turns out to be not what I expected. Cuddled up in the warmest quilt on one of the most expensive beds in the house, under the newest air conditioner, in the most comfortable home clothes, I feel nothing.

Broken apart for some reasons, numb because of the overuse of tears. Times like these when you ask God, 'why?' What's happening, you don't understand. You don't know why this is happening to you, you don't know how to solve this, you don't know what's right anymore, you're not sure if you were the person you were a month ago, you don't know who to trust anymore, when someone you trust so much, has left you hanging, like how the Bungy Jumping coordinator left you hanging mid-air, forgetting to press the pull button and went for lunch. Being stuck mid-air, is horrifying. Being stuck mid-air gives you horrifying thoughts of what might happen next, if the rope would snap, and you'll plummet ninety feet high and die, or if the Bungy Jumping coordinator would never come back, and leave you there starving,-slow and painful way of dying?

Then you remember the Big Guy, who still loves you, and He's somewhere up there. And if you'd just call out His name, long enough, loud enough, He'll hear you, and He'll press that button. And He'll deliver you from your situation. He'll pull you up, and tell you it's okay, wipe away the frantic tears and the cold sweat. He'll carry you into a warm cafe, sit you down, and buy you your favorite cup of tea. Because He knows. He knows you. He knows why, and He knows you.

And now, you don't feel so empty, after writing this and looking at your empty things.

Be afraid. Be human.

Updatteeeee.

I have a shop selling brand new and preloved items on Instagram. Named @escapadeandbliss.

Do support me!

Thank you.
<3

occupy.

she occupies herself with things to do, but when she stops, she still thinks of him.

-anonymous.

weaknesses made perfect in Him.

sometimes, some things, in life hits you, so badly, when you least expect it to. you're left there to witness the cut, the raw wound.

you don't know what to do, in that split second, you stop, you ponder, you think, your mind wanders, you're numb, and after that split second, your stimulus rush through your bloodstream, like a brand new Ferrari along a new deserted grey with white stripes platform with no resistance, and after that the pain follows through, piercing through every cell, every nerve, every receptor, and it hurts.

then, your brain, starts thinking. it starts knowing, acknowledging, the cause of this raw wound. sometimes, you jerk, and scream a little, rush to the basin, clean it and bandage it. but other times, you leave it, looking at it, not knowing what to do, like a toddler entering his kindergarten for the first time ever.

You leave it, and it hurts you. The absence of actions, the absence of being 'busy', the absence of another human being, leaves you, hanging there. And you don't know what to do. And your mind wanders. Thinking of all sorts of things. Thinking why, you've let yourself get hurt, why you'd stopped for way too long, why, you'd not acted before. You're stuck there for way too long. Longer than you've ever known. You shout, but with no voice. You seek, but with no sight. You move, but with no strength. You're weak. You need that boost.

And then someone comes and help you bandage it, your Father bandaged it for you. He tells you, that's it's okay. That your fright will be over. Your anxiety will be gone. Your uncertainty will fade. And He will be there for you.


That's just what you and I, need the most.

emotionally.

okay, time to tell yourself,

'It's time to grow up, and put beside your old, naive ways. It may seem so comfortable to be childish, to be stuck in that zone, but it's wrong, start growing up mentally, and emotionally.'

right,.

Do you know, self-righteousness?
Do you feel self-righteous sometimes?
Do you feel right when you see others doing something wrong, and you're doing it right?
Do you sometimes feel, that you can do better?
Do you feel that in that whole area you are standing in, (thankGod) I'm good?

Then when something else happens, which you can't cope, and when you don't feel so righteous anymore, the slap on your face, is really really hard, isn't it?

I learn, you learn, we learn. Thank God eventually, we learn humility.

that, feeling.

how it feels to know, to hear, to see, to think about, to try, to reach, to, feel;-








but never, to hold.

Take time to realize,

sometimes, when you look back and see what you wrote in your blog 3 years ago, you feel so childish, and there's a sudden wave of urge to delete each and every one of them, but you see your timeline at the side, and you see it so long, all these, years. sometimes, some memories can be somewhat embarrassing, somewhat naive, somewhat childish, but you know that these memories, these past events are what makes you you, so you delete the thought of deleting these posts, and type a new post- 'Take Time To Realize'.

Bloom.

I remembered how happy I was. That's enough.

Balloon Craze. (2)

I THINK PICTURES JUST SPEAK A THOUSAND WORDS, DON'T THEY? ☺☺

Balloon Craze.

Yesterday, I held a birthday surprise party for my best friend. She's turning sixteen tomorrow, but won't be around so I did it yesterday.

I got her sixteen balloons, a jelly birthday cake, sixteen people including her to come for the party, dad to prepare us loads of good food, people to buy tarts and donuts, some party poppers (?).

I'm pretty much typing blindly starting from now, since the Blogger App on the iPhone is being so uncooperative. Sometimes, it ruins your mood, don't you think so, not getting what you want, but you realized that there are so many little things in life that can bring you some joy, like seeing your friends smile, like taking some good Polaroid photos, like sucking helium air into your system, or trachea (?), and talking really hilariously.

God is merciful, He gives us little things like these in life to enjoy, to savor. So do so, with what you have, now. Dear.


Till the next time, love.


Oh and I don't know where blogger would place my photo, either up there or down here, but that's me with the balloons.

Pain, (less?)

Today, I hit my ankle on the stairs. That instant immediate pain can be so, painful, but I pressed hard on it. The equalization of pressure (?) somewhat makes it not so unbearable, and within seconds, the pain is gone, vaporized into thin dusty paint-smelling air.

I guess sometimes in life, you need to apply the same principle. A problem, a heartache, a loss, a betrayal might hit on you hard, so hard, but if you'd just press on, if you'd just calm down, and not overreact, if you'd just be a little patient, it'll be gone, it'll vaporize, because I personally believe, that no matter how bad or terrible something is, it doesn't last forever, because time, somewhat heals. And heartaches like these; will pass.

In the near future, you'll almost forget how it feels, though you may remember the impact, but it doesn't matter, as long as you press on, get over these feelings, and move on with life.

It's been pretty long, hasn't it?